Things I've learned since you've been gone:

• Grief is hard work. It’s not just mental, it’s physical and it can strike at any time. I can be on top of the world and the next thing I know, I feel like all life is gone from me.

• Life goes on. As much as I hate to accept it, the world did not stop spinning the day you died. Well, maybe mine did but no one else’s.

• All we grieving mums are the same. It doesn't matter if our child was murdered, died of cancer or SIDS. In the end, we are all mums of angels and we are forever bonded.

• You will not be forgotten. I have moments when I think no one remembers you even existed and then someone will talk about you or say your name and I know that you always will be remembered/

• I will survive this. As long as I wake up in the morning, then I have survived. I can't guarantee that day will be a good one but at least I woke up.

• Your spirit will never die. You live on through me and now Jaxon, who looks so much like you. As long as there is breath in me, there will be life in you.

The most important thing I have learned is that no matter where you are or how long you have been gone, you are always with me. You are always in my heart and that will never change.

I love you and miss you so much Teagyn and I know that I always will, there isn't a day hour or even a minute that I don't think about you . I never thought I could make it without you but you left me with strength I never knew I had, if you can go through all that you did in your short life, then I can go on and make sure that your memory lives on and that you are never forgotten.

 

You blessed me in so many ways, you taught me the meaning of true unconditional love, I never got to hear you say I love you mummy or get and intentional hug or kiss, but one look at your smile or at your beautiful eyes and I knew that you loved me and knew that I loved you.

 

You have given me strength, you have made me a much stronger person, in the beginning of my journey with grief I didn't think I could or would survive. I never thought that I would smile again, laugh or be happy. I know that I will never be truly happy as my baby girl is not here with me but I know that I will see you again and that day will be one of the happiest days.

 

I love you baby girl and I always will, more than you will ever know. Stay safe and watch over Jaxon for me, give grandma and grandpa a hug from us.

 

I'm sending you a million hugs and kisses     XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

 

love always mummy